Complicated life
I don’t understand why am I soo hook onto you even when you had indirectly smack me on the face several time. Is this what it’s called LOVE? What the heck? If this is love, why am I the one feeling it and not the other party? I’ve tried everything I could think of just to give a smile on your face but it failed. And by saying all this, it will just make it more worst. Trust me, it will. So what I’ve decide now is to just let go of it for good and care more about myself. Its true that I’m a person who cared more about others than myself. But now I’ve learnt my lesson. What others may think is their problem, none of my business. What I care now is me and my future. Love life can wait. I’ll just depend on Him to decide for me. End of story.
the best thing about tonight
hoping we’re not fighting
could it stay like this always as before
i know you don’t think that i am trying
i know you’re wearing thin down to the core
but hold your breath
because tonight could be the night
that i’ll fall for you over again
pls don’t change your mind
or i won’t live to see you another day
and i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
really impossible to find.
this is not what i’ve intended
i swore to you i’d never fall apart
you always thought that i was stronger
i have failed, but i have love you from the start
oh, but hold your breath
because tonight could be the night
that i’ll fall for you over again
pls don’t change your mind
or i won’t live to see you another day
and i swear its true
because a girl like you is impossible to find
really impossible to find.
I really just can’t stop thinking about you. Say me lonely all you want cause the real facts is that i’m totally in love with you. i’ve tried many ways just to impress and win your heart but its just not enough to break thru into your sturdy heart. what i can sense is that im no longer in your list. feeling i had been strikeout from your love life. being friends is all you wanted me to be nothing more, nothing less. just friends. she got once told me off to find someone else and forget about her but it ain’t that simple, REALLY. how can i possibly love someone else just to forget the person that i love the most? if that would had been simple, love won’t even last a minute. and thats for sure.
btw… i got a feeling if she would to read this, i bet she will just told me off.
P.S (dont get the wrong idea, she not the bad person here. i merely just sharing my thoughts here.)
WE CAN’T ALWAYS EXPECT THINGS TO HAPPEN YOUR OWN WAY. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO JUST SUCK IT ALL UP AND MOVE ON. DON’T TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED.
When you face some problem, friends are always
there to help you to go through it. But in fact when
you’re alone again, those problem will just come
back through your mind.” Mind-torturing.
we have known each other for at least 126 days an counting. the first 100 days was so memorable. had plans here and there without ever thinking about anything. when out to even places that I’ve never imagine me going. well there are still fights going on and off but, we still made it through. from time and time, things change. its getting a bit rocky down the road. her past had struck on her consistently without ever knowing the damages she had done. i was trying my best then to try not suck it all in but even a big guy like me, had a heart as fragile as glass. day by day I’ve tried to not lost her heart but she got carried away and took it as if I’m a weakling who can’t face reality with words from me just annoyed her more. this commotion, has been going on till today. I may look like I don’t care about this matter but actually deep down, I really miss you. I hope there’s still place for me in your heart. Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku. Please give me strength to go through this. Please give me a second chance to make things right.
Missing those times……</3
